Hi,
It sounds sad but clearly if you don’t have any pleasure doing it you’d better stop. This is a good thing if you play piano. And do not forget, stopping to compose music today doesn’t imply you’ll never start again.
I started doing music, mostly with LMMS, about 15 years ago. For a hobby, I have a job and never expected having a career in music. I had stopped making music for a while, but started again a couple of years ago. Until recently, I was doing it following my feelings, my instinct, I was probably thinking that if I have any talent it would just show itself. But a year ago, I told myself: there are plenty of tutorials on YouTube, it would not arm to watch a few, just to see. I watch one, then two… after the third one I had to admit that once again I have been the victim of my rather pretentious personality. I hated myself for how I could have been so dumb thinking that watching tutorial and read shits would have no use, no interest. I discovered tons of things on music production, there were only a very few that I figured myself alone, but for all the others I was just doing it wrong. I could have avoid so much mistakes, and done so much more if I started to learn earlier.
But well, can’t change the past. Now I watch some tutorials or artist interviews regularly. Even if some of the tutorials are wrong, or about a genre a don’t like, or a plugin I won’t use (I forbid myself the use of VSTs, for reasons I won’t explain there), there is still one interesting thing to learn.
I don’t know if you’ve done that yourself, but if not, do it. I’ll put some links of the youtubers I find interesting.
I've tried different genres, I suck at all of them. I'm too embarrassed to share even a single track.
I’m a big fan of techno music, I did a lot of free parties, I listen many other genres but techno, especially "tribe" techno was the genre I wanted to produce, "minimal" too. I wanted to reproduce kind of the same sound, because this was the music I appreciated. I quickly discovered it requires a lot more than just wish it. Also, I have a taste for experimentation, so I was not using my time only in the goal to produce the specific genre I was aiming to, but also a lot to experiment, or to do what I later discovered was call "sound design".
It results I’m producing tracks that I think many people would not even consider being musical, or a very crappy music at best. And this is true, I never found anybody doing the kind of music I produce. But do you know what: While this is definitively not what I consider my favorite music, I like it though, I listen my tracks sometime.
But I too was too embarrassed to share anything. I didn’t want to make people have pity of me… hard to explain…
This is total bullshit ! Don’t be embarrassed, there is nothing as bad music, there is only music some people like to listen to or don’t. There is no obligation to stick to a genre of any kind. You can have your own genre, this is not a fucking problem. Just look at what was music concrète or punk rock or whatever in the beginning. It was considered stupid and dumb, but some people start to find it interesting. And maybe my music or yours are dumb and will never have a single one other people appreciating it, it does not care at all.
I’ll always keep in mind what a great french artist said (I’m french), the greatest nowadays imo : KingJu from the band Stupéflip : “I’m doing the music I wan’t to listen to”. And may sound trivial or silly, but I think it says it all.
I was coming here to share my last audio crime because I stopped being embarrassed, life’s to short, then I read your message. I hope it could be of some use to you. So here’s the links. Sorry if it’s obvious and you already know those guys.
https://www.youtube.com/@OscarUnderdog he’s working with Abelton. While there are thing you can’t do in LMMS, like freezing track or whatever, most of his advice is still valid if you use LMMS
https://www.youtube.com/@EDMTips
https://www.youtube.com/@Alice-Efe
And another link I just want to put there, not a proper tutorial but a very talented artist I discovered only recently, who use the particular technique of the “loop station”, Marc Rebillet,
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KzQp8wEx-DE
One of my favorite track of Stupeflip,
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PdaAHMztNVE
He did a few track in English but most of them are in french, sorry ^^
And… the most important! The thread I created to share my masterpieces here ^^ , where you can find the link to listen my last hit: “Bassoon scam” :
viewtopic.php?p=82770 and so much more.
And yes, if any case you wonder. I’d like to listen what you do. What are you afraid of? That I’ll tell you I think it’s shit? Well, that’s already what you think of your track, so what’s the matter? (but seriously share it or not, no problem for me whatever is your choice).
Cheer!
